Film review: Wadjda

Dear Dad

A rare insight into lives squeezed between a slit of the Niqāb (face-veil), Wadjda brilliantly evokes the Islamic society in Saudi Arabia where women eat food left over by men, where pre-teen girls are married to males twice, or more, their age, and ‘proper’ girls are neither seen nor heard, for a woman’s voice reveals her “nakedness”.

Taking us there is feisty and rebellious Wadjda (extraordinary Waad Mohammed), a 10-year-old girl who has chosen Converse high-tops over girly Mary-Jane shoes to walk to and from her middle-class Riyadh home and the madrassa.

She has loving parents although her mother is heavy with anxiety that Wadjda’s father is seeking out a second wife to bear him a son. Meanwhile, the highly-spirited only child has resolved to own a bicycle so that she could race with Abdullah, the boy she hangs out with in the neighbourhood.

Unable to persuade her mother, influenced by the belief that girls could lose their virginity riding a bike, to give her the money, the determined young lady signs up for a Quran recital competition in which the cash prize in riyal would allow her to make the purchase.

Held together with sharply-drawn vignettes that cohere, this feature — the first to be filmed entirely in Saudi Arabia by her first female director, Haifaa al-Mansour — could well prove to be a seminal work in a country where cinemas themselves have been banned for three decades.

Using white light that jumps off the dust in the dry and sun-swept capital, Lutz Reitemeier captures the bleak subjugation women in the kingdom endure — a fact the Saudi King’s daughters have only recently attested to.

Collaborating seamlessly, the filmmakers juxtapose the behaviour of Saudi women today with incipient attitudes of the next generation.

When the headmistress of the madrassa expels a student over a romantic tryst, while rumoured to be similarly indulgent herself, Wadjda is unafraid to tell the entire school of her plans to buy the frowned-upon bicycle with her winning prize. When her mother goes to unfathomable lengths not to be compromised in the eyes of Islam to preserve her husband’s honour, only to be betrayed, Wadjda is using her feminine charm on Abdullah to learn how to ride without training wheels.

With the wind in her hair, and miles ahead of Abdullah on the new bike — a metaphor (within metaphors) emphasised by the little boy’s labouring look — Wadjda is pushing boundaries past disapproving looks breaking through seeming grimness into the freedom and independence that all women are entitled to.

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I choose solitude
to be with you

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red afternoon

afternoon walks along the path
in her red velvet cloak that opens
to bare legs and feet

the ground moans gently under her step
it is warm and rough and calm
breathing in then out

a wombat clutching his find
stops in the scamper home
to watch her pass

she turns to look at him
sweeping a circle of leaves
from where she stands

a pair of green rosellas
perches on a branch above
to catch the glow

she lifts her face and the hood
falls soft around her shoulders
chin pointed on smooth slender neck

roots stroll by beneath her small white feet
she has understood the quiet and purpose
which is the strength of her life

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Satin Kisses

i remember when i stood
between your legs
you braided my hair
weaving ribbons of satin kisses

when little kneads rolled off
my fingers onto your shoulders
you sighed and said
angels were dancing

beneath today’s changing tree
and different backyard
will you let me lie on your lap
again and fall asleep

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In the book of my existence
my mother is the laconic Foreword
few would have read
Yet it is the most precious part in the telling

of that modest tale

like the ink in the author’s pen

flowing with love

the way her mind flows with thought

giving my heart hands

to hold the ribbons of life

my soul pearls of teaching

to wear as a necklace in the ethereal light
Only –

I don’t tell her this

often enough
not anywhere near often enough

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She could feel his eyes follow her when she moved from painting to painting. With watchful pace he kept a devoted distance. Yet each time she turned he looked away, hastily pondering Pissarro’s wooded landscape vaguely before him, or peasants resting, or the 19th-century artist’s white-bearded self-portrait.

She had travelled to New South Wales for the weekend to attend the exhibition. The event was going to Melbourne, but not for three months, and she did not want to wait.

The collection was impeccable in detail, mostly oiled or etched. She had spent four hours meandering through the corridors of the painter’s life, and now stepping out through the freestone columns of the gallery, she squinted. The late-Spring sun slanted across park lands, and cast shadows of foliage on the ground.

She found a bench under a big oak tree and sat down. In the far side of the lawn, a group of friends was lying on the grass. One was strumming on a quiet guitar. She pulled out a book and started to read.

Someone came and stood in front of her.

“Hello,” he stretched out his hand. “My name’s Ryan. How do you do?” — it was him. She tasted a strong British accent in an afternoon-cocktail voice almost like English Cider.

Extending hers she smiled, “Hi.” He sat carefully down at the other end of the wooden seat.

He told her he was a visitor from London. His seminar had ended a day earlier than schedule. He would be flying on to Auckland the following morning. This was not his first time here but because he was always busy with conferences or research meetings he had never actually seen the city.

“What are you reading?” he asked.

She held up the book to show him.

“I’ve got this,” he raised Gabriel García Márquez’s One Hundred Years of Solitude. And grinned. She smiled, and went back to pick up the sentence where she had left off. Ryan thumbed over the page-thickness of the big book without opening it as if there was braille on its skin.

Then turning his body to face her, his big long arm on the backrest between them, he said, “Listen, I was thinking that, perhaps, we could, if you’re alone, and I’m not too repulsive that, maybe, you and I could perhaps wander the place together.”

For a brief moment he lowered his eyes that were as potent as his mop of hair. “I can, I mean, I can be quite funny, really,” he lifted his eyes again to meet hers as a wavy strand fell across his strained forehead.

She got to her feet. Slinging her bag across one shoulder, keeping it away from the lace-strap of her white cotton top that had an open-flap back, so that it rested against her back jeans-pocket, she said, “Well, let’s go then.”

Ryan leapt to his feet.

Standing by his side, she realised how tall he was. His checked shirt was tucked casually into faded denim. And he walked with long easy strides. She put on her hat.

They hopped on a bus and headed to the back. “So, what do you do for a living?”

“I’m a financial analyst,” she replied.

“Yeah? I always treat my analysts at the hospital with proper respect.”

“It wasn’t a first choice; how I fell into it is a bit of a narrative.”


The wind was parading behind them; she pushed her hair away from her face.

“To cut the story short, my father persuaded me that finance was the closest thing to music that was practical. He told me that since I understood music, and I understood mathematics, I had to understand numbers.

“In high school I had to keep telling myself that just as Bach’s Goldberg Variations rely on symmetry to transition from theme to variation, so might exchange, so might currency. I still do. From time to time. In periods of forced delusion.” she said.

“I played the organ when I was a boy. The last time I played I was 12. At my grandfather’s funeral. Midway through the procession I saw my grandfather sitting there beside me. And he was there, right there, next to me, watching my fingers. I told my parents afterwards, but they pulled me aside and told me that dead people were gone and never came back. But I knew what I saw. And I knew it was him.”

“My late father was a disciplinarian. He made me practise for hours a day with my eyes shut. And he watched my fingers closely. He loved it when I could play well. Mozart, Debussy, Chopin. He just didn’t think I could make a career out of it.”

The bus took them on a loop and they got down near where they had got on. St Mary’s Cathedral stood robed in her regal gown at the top of a flight of steps, catching an oblique sliver of the late afternoon glow on the profile of her young ancient face.

Enveloped in the golden sandstone and carved nave and stained glass they sat down on a pew, looking up and around them. There was no one else.

“Churches have a certain serenity that’s special to me,” she said with unconscious softness. “The first time, though, I found myself in a church was when my cousin died from a sudden illness. We were both 14. It’s been so many years. I have grown up since. But she, I suppose, is still 14.”

“I’ve never been religious, but everytime I walk into a church, I feel the pain of people who come here to seek comfort, looking for answers. It amazes me that suffering and peace can join in one common place for generation after generation.”

Ryan took her hand from her lap; and she let him.

As they walked towards Circular Quay the sky was a sea of flames perforated with cloud chasms. The soft light made their skin tones sing. There was a family pushing close behind. They let them pass. The parents were struggling with a handful of three young children.

“My life actually started off as something of a tragedy,” Ryan said, still holding her hand.  “My parents had not wanted me after four kids. And, I guess, because they resented my existence, I spent my childhood also resenting it.” He paused looking towards the harbour. “Then as I got older I decided that if I just accepted my life as hard, it makes it easier to be happy when something good happens.”

“I was a bit luckier then,” she replied. “Our parents doted on us, my brother and me. And my father was successful in his profession, so we mostly got what we wanted, although he was strict … and my relationship with him was not always happy.”

Just as Sydney Harbour Bridge was coming into sight Ryan brought her hand up to his lips. “It’s funny how I tell you things I don’t normally tell people.”

She glanced up at him, and smiled. They walked on in silence.

She liked Ryan. She liked the way he collected himself. And the way his mind trod. She liked how his temple throbbed a little when he thought; how his eyes dropped her into a well of sadness. And how they connected with hers. She liked his big hands. His close-cut nails. The way he looked at her. There was something about him that made her feel reckless.

“Give me a word, Ryan,” she said, calling him by name for the first time. “Any word, anything random.” She did not explain why.

And Ryan did not ask. With little thought he said: ghost.

As if it was something he had simply taken out from inside his breast pocket.

That night, at dinner, while Ryan was off to the bathroom, she found a piece of paper and scribbled on it:

I shall forever be haunted by the eyes of the boy who saw his grandfather’s ghost

And slipped it inside the cover of his book.

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Put your stethoscope away; mine’s not a heart you can press your ear against for secret murmurings. There is a leaky valve in my chest. But it’ll never be seen from colours sucking and sliding in your sonogram. Read the circumspection between my lips, hear for answers in the absence of the postman’s bell, see how shadows of my silhouette are diminishing. Because, only then will you have mastered the cardiology beating in my quiet breasts.

We lay on the windswept grass
in the same drought
of a different geography

A bit of longing
mixed with some apathy
It’s been five long years

Thought I’d wiped you forever
from memory but here you are
inside me, making waves

Dear Dad

In my dream last night, Friedrich Wieck was my teacher. And he forced me to practise with my eyes clamped shut. As he rapped my knuckles each time I tripped and I floundered, music sang from my fingers to fill the air in every night corner. When I was finally allowed to blink into the light, dim from the lamp, I had become Clara Schumann, as slight as she was determined, playing Johann Bach’s Air on the G String. Because.

I miss you.

i am sitting silent at the desk
unfolding my heart like a letter
to read for him her contents — sadder now
in places, remembering still in others

autumn is red and gold
and green in leaves
clouds and skies of pain
always coming then passing

it is a day filled with
magic and love and poetry
how would he like to lie beside me
on the grass in the sun again

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